"Is constant awareness of my need a negative and faithless focus point?"
"My child, you need Me every moment. Your awareness of your constant need for Me is your greatest strength. Your neediness, properly handled, is a vital link to My Presence.
However, there are pitfalls that you must be on guard against: self-pity, self-preoccupation, giving up. Your inadequacy presents you with a continual choice - dependence on Me, or despair. The emptiness you feel within will be filled either with problems or with My Presence.
Make Me central in your conciousness by praying continually. Simple, short prayers. Flowing out of the present moment. Use My name liberally to remind you of My Presence. Keep on asking and you will receive, so that your gladness may be full and complete.
"Be cheerful no matter what; pray all the time; thank God no matter what happens. This is the way God wants you who belong to Christ Jesus to live" 1 Thessalonians 5:17.